We lost another one...

Regrettably Chris has succeeded in what he has tried numerous times before.

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This is where I was about write how he died but I realised thats not for me to share...
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I feel like I'm violating he's privacy just by writing this but seeing it in black and white makes it very real and cold.

We weren't very close. We didn't even get along and selfishly all I can think is I don't need this.

I feel like an exhausted soldier dodging bullets and watching comrades fall.
I'm not spending my time being excruciatingly sad I'm just sitting still, pondering.